Wow. Now I know why I really don’t like going to the hairdresser.
Strange I didn’t notice this before, I’ve always thought I was just a bit odd, particular, and that’s why I find it such a tense, stressful experience. I literally feel the agitation coming on.
Previously I’d put it down to me not being a fan of change, which obviously a haircut is. That and the proximity of the hairdresser (I feel the same about the dentist).
But, oh boy, there is so much more to it.
No idea how I didn’t notice this before. I like to think it’s because I am now more accepting and aware of my needs.
Was I really masking before?
Well, today I noticed everything – the touch, the smell, the sounds of four hairdryers all going at once.
People talking, the music, the sounds of the brush, sounds of foil on my head.
The feeling of the brush, hands on my head, the cold of the foil, the colour.
The light on the mirror everywhere, reflection vibration and so much more.
The temperature of the water, its sound, the smell of shampoo. All at the same time.The feeling of her hands.
People talking to me. She’s talking to me. It’s all happening at the same time.
It felt like chaos.
It was so much to cope with and I started to notice becoming very heightened.
I started doing my breathing exercises, finger tapping, and using my spinner (fidget toy) I carry with me.
I started to regulate my self. As I was feeling very heightened and going towards fight flight freeze state.
So glad I can notice the signs and know how to regulate myself.
Just telling myself, “It’s OK, you’re fine, it’s just the hair dresser.”
“You can’t walk away you’re being silly.”
“You can’t say anything.”
So many thoughts; none of them helped.
I’m glad I had my tools to help me.
What do you do when you’re triggered?
When everything is too much and it becomes overwhelming?
I see you.
I hear you.
I feel you.
The pain, how the senses are so overwhelming, absorbing everything at once, the physical pain, mental pain, and really stuck knowing what to do, then followed by meltdown.
I see you.
I only experienced this during the hair appointment, I know this is your normal every moment of your day.
I’d love to share some of the tools and techniques that helped me.
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